(by The General Specific)
(via oceansalts)
i'm a fourteen year old city girl. i'm social, happy, loved... perfect on the outside. on the inside, well, that's a completely different story. i'm falling apart, heartbroken. i'm alone. so read my blog, read about how i feel and how i'm trying to deal with it. read about how i feel on the insde, and how i'm faking it everyday.
the blog of a girl secretly falling apart
the thunderstorm
She is a thunderstorm, always crazy and out of control. I never know what to expect when I come within distance of it. The wind always slapping me and the rain always pounding down on my head. I constantly get hurt and I’m unbelievably tired of the bad weather. Some children see a thunderstorm as a good and fun thing, to me, it will always be something horrible.
the ghost
My sister is a ghost. I can feel her presence everywhere, but she’s never really there. The ghost is always off and gone by the time I finally get a hold of it. Sometimes, the ghost will lead me to wonderful things that I would have never thought of coming across, but most times I’m left alone and confused. I usually find myself wishing that this ghost will find another way to live.
day 3: 10.10.13
dear parents,
I’m so thankful for the food and shelter you have provided me with, but honestly you’ve never really given me anything. I’m raising myself here. You two have never been there for me, you two don’t understand anything I have ever had to go through. I always try talking it out, but both of you just simply don’t have time for me. I know I can sometimes be a pain, but i’d really appreciate it if you would atleast achknowledge my presence
love,
your wonderful daughter
I remain unknown
you don’t need me, you never really did. I just wanted to see you, to tell you that I’ve missed you. there were days where I spent thinking about you, but that’s clearly not the case for you. i took this time away from you to clear my head, you took it as an escape route to forget all about me.
i found this picture on the internet and i thought that it would be so cool to be that happy
▲ infinite .: - Cheers.
Here’s to the notes lost in the washer, to the memories washed away. Here’s to never forgetting. Here’s to being young and never wanting to grow up. Here’s to believing every lie that people have told you. Here’s to change, both good and bad. Here’s to missing people you care about. Here’s to…
today, i talked to one of my best guy friends all day. i know that sounds extremely stupid, but i don’t regret any of it. sometimes, all you really need are those stupid stay in days. the kind of days where you just sit in your pajamas all day and eat icecream and feel fat, but dont really care. the kind of days which make you feel like a complete no life loser, but at the samemakes you feel as if you have one of the best lives.
HERES TO THOSE STAY IN DAYS.
you ditched me at a fucking park, hurting. i needed your help and you left me there. i was dying emotionally, and you didnt think twice.
