May 2011
1 post
October 2010
4 posts
the thunderstorm
She is a thunderstorm, always crazy and out of control. I never know what to expect when I come within distance of it. The wind always slapping me and the rain always pounding down on my head. I constantly get hurt and I’m unbelievably tired of the bad weather. Some children see a thunderstorm as a good and fun thing, to me, it will always be something horrible.
the ghost
My sister is a ghost. I can feel her presence everywhere, but she’s never really there. The ghost is always off and gone by the time I finally get a hold of it. Sometimes, the ghost will lead me to wonderful things that I would have never thought of coming across, but most times I’m left alone and confused. I usually find myself wishing that this ghost will find another way to live.
day 3: 10.10.13
dear parents,
I’m so thankful for the food and shelter you have provided me with, but honestly you’ve never really given me anything. I’m raising myself here. You two have never been there for me, you two don’t understand anything I have ever had to go through. I always try talking it out, but both of you just simply don’t have time for me. I know I can sometimes be...
I remain unknown
you don’t need me, you never really did. I just wanted to see you, to tell you that I’ve missed you. there were days where I spent thinking about you, but that’s clearly not the case for you. i took this time away from you to clear my head, you took it as an escape route to forget all about me.
August 2010
1 post
July 2010
10 posts
▲ infinite .: - Cheers. →
Here’s to the notes lost in the washer, to the memories washed away. Here’s to never forgetting. Here’s to being young and never wanting to grow up. Here’s to believing every lie that people have told you. Here’s to change, both good and bad. Here’s to missing people you care about. Here’s to…
this summer has been good to me
today, i talked to one of my best guy friends all day. i know that sounds extremely stupid, but i don’t regret any of it. sometimes, all you really need are those stupid stay in days. the kind of days where you just sit in your pajamas all day and eat icecream and feel fat, but dont really care. the kind of days which make you feel like a complete no life loser, but at the samemakes you feel...
you ditched me at a fucking park, hurting. i needed your help and you left me there. i was dying emotionally, and you didnt think twice.
“i’m looking at the sky to count the stars. i wonder if you see them where...”
july 13 2010
we’re trying to rebuild our friendship. but honestly, i dont think it’ll ever be the same. we waited too long, and now we’re just two strangers that don’t even acknowledge eachother’s presence.
“oh, and do you want to know something? puppies grow up and turn into dogs. and...”
july8'10
i used to admire him. i thought he was the strongest man in the world. i had so much hope and faith in him. whenever he’d come home, i’d go up to him and ask him about his day. i’d ask him what happened and how amazing it probably was. i always tried to please him. i never made mistakes in front of him. i had to be perfect. i was perfect… for him.
he left on march 30,...
June 2010
9 posts
day 2 june 28 2010
dear crush,
i really wish you’d notice me and realize that i’m here to stay.
love, me
“i’ve been going crazy, i’m stuck in here”
day 1- june 27, 2010
dear bestfriend,
i remember when we first met. we were so excited that we had names that rhymed and that it was probably a sign from God that we were meant to be friends. i remember when we’d sit and laugh at nothing in particular, but everything was funny when we were together. i remember when we decided to pack our bags and runn away together for a day while listeniing to boyslikegirls. i...
starting today
30 Days of Letters
Day 1 — Your best friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your parents Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your dreams Day 6 — A stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could...
june 27, 2010
she gave me a book about cancer. i tried reading it last night. i was all alone, letting all time low play from my stereo and the light from my lamp lit a little section of my room. it was quiet and i felt safe. i opened that book and the first sentence i read was: i wish this book was never written. i wish that too. if cancer was never around that book would have never been written. but cancer is...
june 11, 2010
i cant remember what happened on december 11, 2009. apparently its supposed to be the best day of my life.
and that’s what scares me the most.
The road to success is not straight. There is a...
365thoughts:
— Philippians 4:13
six billion secrets
I know you think your family is breaking apart. Even though I know mine is much worse, I’ll still keep a smile and help you through it because your my friend.
six billion secrets
I hope to die a hero, I don’t want to live life anymore, but i cant take my own life. I’m just waiting for my chance to save the day and die knowing i did something to help the world.
May 2010
2 posts
may 21, 2010
may 21, 2010
i think you’re a huge dirty slut. you’re so stupid and pathetic. you’ve done all of that stuff, and then you go around twisting my words and making me look like i hang out with the wrong kind of people. YOU’VE ACTUALLY DONE THAT STUFF. so dont go around making me look like the one to blame. you’re such a slut. have fun getting pregnant at sixteen. ...
may 17, 2010
the days are starting to get longer and the nights shorter. everything is starting to fall into place. it’s almost summer, everything’s coming to an end. people are bringing out the short shorts and the tank tops and the water guns and the flip flops. and right now, everything is starting to get wonderful, for a little while atleast.
but something still doesn’t feel right. every...
April 2010
10 posts
im in love with a boy that i met on canada day. he spoke 14 words to me that day. 14 words i will never forget.
im fighting a fucking war. im tied down. i feel like im the girl tied to the tailroad tracks just waiting for that train to come and hit me. i feel like im trapped in this fucked up life, just waiting for it to be over.
i hate waiting
i sometimes just need someone to talk too
throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the...
i hate everyone here. i hate my friends and how they never answer their phones. i hate how when they do i have absolutely nothing to say so i just hang up. i hate how i save a spot for every single person in my life, but they just get up and leave, leaving that place empty. i hate how i want to leave this chit city so fucking badly, but i have no idea how to leave and how long i’ll survive...
and you dont have a clue
when you told me to forget you, i went crazy
working at home
i’ve been trying to be home as little as possible. i’ve been going to school, coming home to just change out of my uniform, and then leaving to go outside. and that’s why i love spring so much. the snow is all melted so i dont have to worry about being cold and coming inside after ten minutes. so as soon as im done changing i grab my backpack and my bike and i go some place far...
My head says, "who cares." But then my heart...
(via 365thoughts)
you build me up, you break me down
april 10 2010,
i had the best day with my best friend today, but then i got home
and i couldnt feel anything anymore.
i honestly think something’s wrong with me. nobody should ever be this numb when they’re with their family or when they’re home. its like being with my family jsut isnt enough for me. yesterday, my mom took me shopping, jsut me and her. its probably the first time since birth...
March 2010
16 posts
i hate those perfect days
dont you just hate those days when everything is so beautiful and sunny and perfect outside, but all you feel like is being alone? and you dont even know whats wrong either. you want someone to be there for you, but you also want to just be left alone. you want to cry and scream, but you have no real reason to act like that, which makes you even more sad.
and this shit is happening today
im really not in the mood to talk to anyone right...
but everyone’s in the mood to talk to me right now
we're not together anymore
can you just please stop speaking to me
ok thanks
spring break 2010
i hate how all of my vacations always start off as shitty as hell.
song of the day
jasey rae - all time low
march 24 2010
that trip was freakin amazing.
it was perfect.
march 20 2010
and you know what? i hope you read this sooner than later ok
i think you act like such a fucking child. you’re so immature. well, if you want this to be just like fifth grade all over again, i’ll let you have your way, just like how i always do.
you told me you wanted to be friends forever. i guess forever ended, huh? you’re so fucking messed up. you need to stop being jealous...
yesterday we sat at that table, listening to old songs. we spoke about old times and it made me smile because you didn’t forget any of them.
there's always that person who'll pop into your...
sean
noah
fireflies by owl city
i used to love that song, but then it got popular and overplayed.
